Well dA... as the title says, I have a confession to make. Something that I've been hiding for years. I've never been who I claimed to be... gender-wise. Now I'm sure you're thinking, 'wait a minute... you have boobs! You're definitely a girl!' True.. I do. However, I may physically be female... but everything else is male. I'm transgendered. I'm also gay (meaning I like guys in case you're confused). lol, suppose no one ever suspected that, eh? Why am I spilling the beans you may wonder? I'm doing so because I'm sick and tired of having to pretend to be someone I'm not. I hate being called female, I hate being mistaken for one. It's not who I am. I've always been Jordan Ethan Perry, not Jordan Elizabeth Perry. Now this doesn't mean that I'm gonna start wearing strictly men's clothes or drop makeup or get rid of my earrings. I guess you could say that those are habits that I grew into.. besides, makeup and jewelry are forms of art. And I love art. I also plan to eventually get chest surgery and T when I'm able to.
I guess you could say I really came to terms with it when I was 13, even though I had finally figured out something was different with me than most girls when I was about 7. When I was younger though, I acted like your average girl... just because it was easier than asking my parents why I was different or wanting to have boys clothes, toys, etc. It was a little easier to bear as I got older and discovered the 'tomboy.' However, that was eventually not enough either.
And it really has been something hard for me to handle. I mean, I'm perfectly fine with it.. I'm just afraid of being rejected by family and close friends. I also think hiding it was the main cause of my depression (that I still have).
I know, quite a journal. I'm tired of pretending though. And if you suddenly decide you hate me and want to stop watching me or being my friend, that's fine. I guess you never really liked me to begin with and I can't force you to change your mind. Just know that this isn't a phase and I'm perfectly happy with who I am.


Have a nice day. :3